The coffee began brewing and the water was boiling over the stove as I noticed something a little different today. My new mug had a smile on it. It’s a Disney mug, a gift from one of my students and it has Micky ears! It’s a little reminder that my life has changed as I tuck away the usual Starbucks mug, just for a moment, as I enjoy my daily morning ritual.
Birthdays really make a person like me look back on life. I’ve realized how much life has shifted over the past year, yet God remains constant in a constantly changing world.
Perhaps the prayer that I contemplate as I sip this cup of coffee is a prayer composed by Thomas Merton which best summarizes my sentiments.
“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”